August 2002 was a big month in my life. After spending two years of living my dream of playing D1 basketball, I packed up everything I owned into my 1996 Ford Crown Vic, and drove across the country to a tiny Christian school in Santa Clarita, California. I had never been to the west coast before, but the promise of a full scholarship and a Christ-centered education was too much to pass up.
One of my first priorities once I arrived on campus was to find my new church home. It did not take long for the words “Cornerstone Simi Valley” and “Francis Chan” to come up. I never made it out to Cornerstone, but I always heard incredible things about the church and its pastor, Mr. Chan.
Fast forward 7 years. About 2 weeks ago I read a post on Twitter by a fellow youth pastor named Tyson, who works at The Austin Stone Community Church. The “tweet” said he had just listened to Chan’s 7-part sermon series on the Holy Spirit via Cornerstone’s podcast, and that it had rocked him pretty well. For whatever reason, I felt like I should check it out, so I downloaded all 7 sermons to my iPhone and started listening to them during my drives to and from work each day.
It has been an illuminating two weeks for me since. I finished the Holy Spirit series and moved on to a mini-series about grace, during which Pastor Chan dropped this quote on me this morning:
If Satan can not get you to disobey the commands of God, he will try to get you to obey them legalistically, which is just as deadly. – Francis Chan
I immediately pushed pause and said out loud, “Whoa.”
I firmly believe the most effective quotes are simple in structure and profound in nature. This one is a great example, and it stopped me in my tracks.
When we experience seasons of growth in regard to righteousness, and victory over former struggles, our adversary does not waste his time trying to blatantly drag us back into our old vice indefinitely. If our actions have become consistently virtuous, he moves straight to our motives and sees how much havoc he can create there.
If he is able to make our response to the grace of God a rigid attempt to earn God’s approval (instead of celebrating that we already have his approval) he has essentially nullified that grace.
Tricky.
“I realize I am radically loved by God, so I want to read the Bible daily to know him as well as I can.”
Good.
“I have been reading daily so long that my reading has become my instrument for feeling worthy of God’s love.”
Not good.
In fact, that is downright evil.
I can stray into this mentality if I’m not careful. All of us can. But there is such liberty in the knowledge that God’s love for us does not wax and wane according to our own consistency. His approval does not come and go with our sporadic faithfulness.
A good friend and mentor recently blessed me with a glimpse into his own life. He told me that every day he wakes up, and immediately prays, “Jesus, I don’t know what today will hold, but I do know that there is absolutely nothing I can do today to make you love me any more, or any less.”
There is such freedom in the simplicity of that prayer, and the truth that lies within it. If we are able to remember that truth, things like reading scripture will never become our attempt to attain the love and approval of our Heavenly Father, but instead always remain our opportunity to better know that Father who has already given his approval through his Son.
Lord, keep us on the path of righteousness, but never let us focus on the path itself. Instead keep our eyes on where the path is leading, and who it is that dwells there.